Queueing at the broad front desk
of Welfare’s downtown office
I brace myself for
the bureaucrat’s strip search.
I am unemployed – again !
These front desk people read my forms,
bring my name up on their screen.
They mutter “No, no, this one will
have to go to the supervisor.
She’s been to us before.”
Social Welfare still speak
sternly after twenty years.
Their elderly code number
follows me to show
a marked recidivist.
out of date
like mouldy cheese !
A disrespectable old age !
Originally posted 7 February 2017
Jobs now vanish everywhere
as a widespread global surge
of ninepins spills out
on town and city streets.
This little academic city
was breeding a business heart
which now is bleeding out its life,
its ninepins roll in the gutter.
No occupation takes beginners
except perhaps conglomerates
with their instant conveyered food
who take the low priced youth.
no longer knock on doors.
Websites have no street addresses,
no clearly numbered homes.
I fill in forms on the silver screen,
have them printed and signed,
then ride them along that silver cable
seeking a new paid workplace.
Originally posted 5 February 2016.
Under a thundercloud sky portending
a drenching deluge I walked along
the rushing river skirting the town.
At the water’s edge marled grey rocks
mingled with pale ochre rocks all smoothed
by millenia of flowing waters.
Dark currents swirled in deep midstream
reflecting darker clouds.
I walked through ragged grass
along the water’s edge
careless of the coming downpour.
Feeling caged in my house
I had to walk.
I had hoped to stay for life
in this country town,
but was cast aside, redundant,
like so many others
in this rural county.
had brought nothing.
Dread of the future, of packing up
and moving, finding a city home
surged over me in waves
with grief for friends and workmates,
and my little country home.
I would have to leave them all.
Fears of new employment,
of interviews and agencies
paralysed my thoughts.
How would I do it all ?
Some years later I passed through
that little town but could not
walk along that river.
When I looked at it
dread, grief, fear welled up in me
as if it were only yesterday
that I walked along its banks.
I turned and walked away.
Originally posted 2 February 2016.
For the next month I will be posting again the poems which I posted in February 2016.
I have had a number of family matters all happening during the lead up to Christmas, and they will continue for a little while yet. This has drastically reduced the time available to me for writing, so I need time to get started on writing again.
I will visit recent posts of the blogs I follow as and when I can.
Happy New Year to you all.
On city ponds and lakes ducks
bring out their ducklings to
set the city services scrambling.
Firemen turn on a hydrant to
float the ducklings fallen in a deep
drain on their way to the park,
reaching down with their bird net to
scoop them up, place them in the bucket.
Two police officers control traffic
in the mornings along the street where
two ducks cross, each with a line of
ducklings all tottering across to the
lake in the park. Running over
ducklings makes folk squeamish.
Waiting for our bus to exit the park
I become impatient, look out the
window to see why we stopped.
A mother duck steps up to the kerb
followed by a line of ducklings, then
crosses the grass to the lake.
How many of these ducklings
will grow up to be shot in
the countryside during next
winter’s hunting season ?
In the foreground of the seaside scene
the pukeko leans down to peck at
the bare ground. Further back stands
an old colonial house, etched in ink,
delicately tinted in water colours.
A calm pale sea shimmers in the
distance beyond hardy windblown
shrubs on a grassy bank. Gnarled
trees wearing crimson flowers protect
the two storey house inside the white
picket fence beside a tidal stream
seeping over the narrow beach.
Lush arum lilies with thick green
leaves sprawl around the unheeding
bird pecking for tasty titbits. Red
legs, beak, comb blaze against
stark blue plumage and its tail,
upended, flashing a splash of white;
placid, contented, peaceful.
*New Zealand swamphen.
Posted a day early due to family Christmas lead up.
The girls at our house
love pink clothes.
The lint in the clothes drier filter is pink.
We play with our babies,
our dolls and our bears,
dress them, put them to bed.
Chloe makes chicken farms from boxes,
or birthday cards, paints pictures.
She swings on the swing,
rides her tricycle. Claire wants to grow up
and do these things too.
Chloe is doing new things
at kindergarten which she
mostly enjoys…except…for …boys.
They put on Batman capes,
they run around after people
pointing two fingers at them
and yell loud banging noises !
Why would they do that ?
Daddy says that’s what boys do,
just as girls play babies and put them to bed.
That’s what girls do. Chloe says
it is not strange to do girl things.
Two boy cousins came with Auntie
to stay for three days last Christmas.
They ran around the house
pointing two fingers at people
and yelling loud banging noises
They jumped high on the trampoline
and shouted all the time.
Daddy laughed !
Chloe was shocked ! Stern faced
she walked along to the bedroom
to peace and quiet with dolls
and bears, pink clothes and
the box full of hair ribbons and clips.
After a time of tranquility
she crept back to the living room,
and curled up on Daddy’s knee
while he hugged her close.
Christmas and family events have caught up with me.
This is re posted from 31 January 2016.