Throughout her three year contract
the young teacher in 1950’s Fiji
prepared young Fijians at high school
for university and skilled employment
as Fiji grew into the post war world.

Born to young English immigrants
struggling to start married life
far from Mother England’s poverty
she put herself through university
in New Zealand as her parents
supported their children in education
to higher employment.

A young Englishman taught beside her
having put himself through university,
supported by low income parents through
education to higher employment.

The young couple’s three years together
blossomed richly. Yet each craved the
return home to family and homeland
to support their generous parents.

In great anger they separated to
their far distant homelands never
to meet or communicate again.

In her hospital bed twenty years later
she had met no one else who fulfilled
her. As cancer devoured her last days
……she wondered ……what if……
… she had gone home with him.


13 thoughts on “Regrets

    1. She died soon afterwards, still in her forties,and she knew she was going to die soon. There were many options we have today that were not there in the 1950’s when she made her decision, nor there in the 1970’s when she died. I feel this is a strong lesson to us to examine our lives and ourselves, and do what we really need to do, and accept that there will be times when we have to make hard decisions between options that can not go together.

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    1. Thank you. We have more options open to us today, that were not there in the 1950’s, or in the 1970’s when she died. But I still feel we need to be very clear about what choices we are making in our lives, and why.

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      1. Yes we do, but I think we do the best we know how at the time, when we are younger. The woman in this poem was one of a very close knit family and would have missed them terribly if she had followed her young man to England. Today we have skype and much cheaper faster travel around the world. In the 1950’s there were only very expensive international toll calls or boat trips taking weeks to travel half way around the world. I just cannot see how she would have had a happy ending either way with this situation.

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      2. An aunt of mine married an American GI and, at the end of WW2, left England and her large family for the American south. Due to US Govt travel restrictions concerning GI Brides, she did not see her family for 2 decades. My mother missed her older sister terribly.

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      3. That must have been very painful for her. And who is to know which choice would have been better for either woman ? And it must have been difficult for those who emigrated far away from the UK even though the decision was made on pressing economic grounds.

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      4. Very sad. These days we do have relatively less expensive and time consuming travel available, as well as skype and here in New Zealand low cost calls overseas to commonly called countries. You sons may get away from the separatist atmosphere in the UK, but racism is everywhere. The USA has a horrible mess with descendants of slaves still living there, and Canada still has a lot to clear up with the Native Americans there. Australia has a huge mess to sort out with their indigenous people who were a nomadic hunter gatherer race so different from European society. Even here in New Zealand where we are further ahead with the indigenous race there is still ill feeling and a way to go. All the best to you and your family in this difficult time.


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