By The River

Under a thundercloud sky portending
a drenching deluge I walked along
the rushing river skirting the town.
At the water’s edge marled grey rocks
mingled with pale ochre rocks all smoothed
by millennia of flowing waters.
Dark currents swirled in deep midstream
reflecting darker clouds.

I walked through ragged grass
along the water’s edge
careless of the nearing downpour.
Feeling caged in my house
I had to walk.
I had hoped to stay for life
in this country town but was cast aside
redundant, like so many others
in this rural county.
Job applications brought nothing.

Dread of the future, of packing up
and moving, finding a city home,
surged over me in waves
with grief for friends and workmates
and my little country home.
I would have to leave them all.
Fears of new employment,
of interviews and agencies
paralysed my thoughts.
How would I do it all ?

Some years later I passed through
that little town but could not
walk along that river.
When I looked at it
dread, grief fear welled up in me
as if it were only yesterday
that I walked along that river.
I turned and walked away.

 

 

 

 

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By The River

7 thoughts on “By The River

  1. Oh, how hard it is to walk away from the place where your heart was born or where it came alive and lives happily. I live in the country and am so happy but there will come a day when we no longer can take care of this much land.I will walk away but my heart will stay. Thank you for this lovely poem.

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  2. Sounds Sad. I moved a long time ago to replace peace, nature and familiarity with the challenges of the big city. It was fun and exhilarating, but now I am returning to the open spaces of nature and a few loyal neighbor’s. I am going to enjoy those walks beside the river, step into my canoe and paddle as far away from this shit of a sick city as I can get. Man was never meant to live in a maze of souless concrete. I hope you find your peace.

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